november rain

2006-06-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Because I still come back here for my links.

2006-05-30T13:16:00.000+08:00

Because Im bored(again), Im switching to livejournal.
The layout stuff is driving me craaaazy!!!!

http://gardenaffair.livejournal.com

see you there!

2006-05-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

I need redemption.

I called my Dad a hypocrite.
He came to my room and started calling me fat and saying stuff like look at your tummy still dont want to exercise and all that shiat, and then he said 'heres seven dollars go buy your dinner'.
I got really pissed cos I knew all he wanted was for me to go down to get his food as well, and that he can use the laptop.

So anyway, Dad went down to buy dinner and I felt bad for.. calling him a hypocrite and throwing tantrums so I went to look for him.
I saw him with two packets of food - GUILT TRIP.

Im so horrible.
I think Im the real hypocrite, I dont know why I keep hurting the people around me that I love so much.
Dad is getting his health report this Wednesday, nothing must happen to him.
I cannot imagine if... no, I dont imagine.

2006-05-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

And my arms keep reaching for you,
my eyes keep searching for you,
my lips keep calling for you,
and my shoes keep walking back to you.

2006-05-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

If I told you this is killing me would you stop

2006-05-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

You know, I was reading cherynann's and she wrote something which speaks volumes of what I feel.

"when i look at my life, i feel like slapping myself for ever complaining about anything at all..or feeling sad too for that matter..coz there's just too much to be thankful for."

Which is why I had so much guilt for being so childish, for being such a brat, for getting upset over tiny little issues like my ipod and phone when I know of others who are hurting so much inside because of losing people that theyve grown to love so dearly.
Life does not suck, you know? Life is good!
God, family & friends. I thank God for them, really.

It's funny how I weigh emotions like that.
I think before I choose to feel.
It's like I analyse things that tug my heartstrings and then I determine if it's worth it, decide how much feelings I should invest in it to guard my heart..
Almost mathematical.
I dont know whether it's supposed to work this way and if I should be valueing emotions like this.
It almost feels as though this aint normal, but it seems to have been working well for me, at least till now.
Perhaps until I lose control of myself.

Oh well, I am rambling again.

PICTURES FROM SUEJEN! Cell on Vesak Day!

This is my dearest cell group that Ive come to love so much over the past half year. :)
From bottom: suejen, ziying, faith, abby.
jeanette (cell leader), drea, shuching, me.
samuel (cell leader), ray, daryl, eric, david (stitch!!).
aaron, nahnah, samuel O, benjy!
& we're missing jan, genesis and pek.

Haha this was during Vesak Day holiday, we had cell at Suejen's house which is btw really pretty and we really really had a whale of a time man!
Since sermon series then was about men and women of destiny, the guys decided to try their hands and COOK for us ha ha hahahaha! joke!
All the virgin chefs and to think we're to be at their mercy!?
Daryl kept reminding us girls to bring charcoal pills in case we laosai or something.

sausages for the meatball spaghetti, cucumber for um.. vegetable, eggs for potato salad! I love potato salads! :D

Kenneth and Sam O, Chefs at work!
Hahahahha I think it was a whole new experience for them also la.
Seeing Aaron and Ray peeling those hot hot potatoes was quite a sight to behold :D

Tall Aaron!

check out the food man hahaha.
& guess what, the food was really quite good trust me!
way beyond expectations!
haha, cha-pa-la soup cos got alot of nutritionous rubbish inside, but it tasted really nice!

So the guys cooked for us, and we girls made specially designed tshirts for them by doodling with fabric crayon on plain giordano tees!

Jeanette's idea! Haha imagine big guys wearing tees that say Princess Club!
Oh, she ruled that the guys are to wear these tees for all cell outings/ camps whatsoever. hahah man I love my cell :) :)

At work! Abby and Drea :)

J2 girls :) jen, shuching, faith, ziying

clothes clothes clothes! :D

I thought Shuching did Benjy's shirt really cute, with all those hearts and girly girly pink!

Haiyo who ah, so evil! Design eric's shirt until got doll somemore!? Heehee :D

After lunch and we're bumming around, Sam bought 2 tubs of Ben n Jerrys and we shared it the unhygienic way! but so yum!!

And soon some had to leave while the rest of us went to play FOOSBALL!!!!!
Haha, crazy la! We played for at least TWO whole hours!!
So fun, screaming, getting high, cheering.
We had tag team championship style and I teamed with Sam O and we were damn pro k!!!
We were undefeated for how many consecutive games la :D
So fun!!

It was such time well spent bonding with my fellow cell members and Im really glad to know that these are the friends that are going to stand by me as I walk my journey alongside them, fighting for God's glory together.
I love my cell! :)

2006-05-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL!

Ohmygod, it's such a bad day today!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!??!???!!

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I NEED TO RANT BUT DONT BOTHER READING REALLY,

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS FRICKIN IPOD ITS KILLING ME ITS DRIVING ME CRAAAAAAAAAAZZZZYYY UP THE WALLS INTO HEAVEN OHMYGAWD IVE INSTALLED/UNINTALLED INSTALLD ANDDD UNINSTALLED HOW MANY FRICKIN TIMES BUT THE FRICKIN IPOD JUST REFUSES TO UPDATE!?!?!?!???!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTT THHHHHHHE HEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
AND SPENDING THE PAST TWO HOURS TRYING TO FIX THIS SHIT HAS JUST TOTALLY RUINED MY PLANS FOR TODAY I HAVE NO MORE TIME TO GO VENEZIA TO STUDY AND NO STUDY = GP FAIL/MATH FAIL/BIO FAIL/ECONS FAIL = NO PHONE = GROUNDED AND OHMYGOD, ITS SUCH A SUCKY WEEKEND AND I GOT BULLIED BY MY TEAMMATES YESTERDAY FOR BEING A NOOB IN DOTA SHIT!

I WILL DELETE THIS POST WHEN LIFE GETS BETTER.

Boy Im so childish it's not even funny.

2006-05-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

[edit]
Hi guys I cannot believe that Im doing this to myself but Im actually blogging when I need to leave the house in 15 MINUTES holy crap and Im not even dressed up yet!
Im waiting for my hair to dry.
I just got home after watching mission impossible 3 with the family!
Yes yes Im slow but Im soooo glad I caught the movie cos it was damn nice and Maggie Q was so hot!!!

Okay, Im actually changing my bra strap cos the colour not nice anyway WHAT IS THIS! I am having a tag drought.
slkfjlsdkjflksdjfs you KNOW I love tags and everyday when I get home I get so happy to see, 2comments/5comments blabla but its been showering some love for too long a time!!!!
WHAT IS THIS.
No tags = No love me, okay?

Okay Im actually typing this really fast.
In the past week I,
played my first dota game with mk and shouyee and we won!!!! wahahahaha whos da prozzZ?
Felt happy and loved.
Ate at Big O for the first time in my life with Mel, Suelynn and Divya and we sure had a fun time especially with the retarded Divya around.
Supported rugby and felt really sad to see big men cry.
Supported basketball and cheered my hearts out.
Had a chance to talk to Candice and reconnected each other's lives, that was nice.
Sent my dead ipod and they gave my a brand new one, but somehow I cant update it. wth?
Couldnt control myself.
Visited my good ol' dentist who gave me a huge lecture for skipping so many appointments.
Been a good and bad friend.
And, I have 3 more minutes before Im late ~~so Im not gna paragraph sorry for your poor eyes.~~

GOODBYE!!!!

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HI AGAIN, I AM FREAKING PISSED OFF.
I BROKE MY PHONE TODAY WHEN I WAS ON MY WAY HOME AND ITS NOT WORKING ANYMORE, I HAVE NO IDEA HOW IM GNA SURVIVE THE NEXT WEEK, OR WEEKS, UNTIL I RETURN TO TECHNOLOGICAL CIVILISATION.
Okay, I need to chill.
Start again.

Hi friends, Im gna be uncontactable for some time while I figure how to survive without a cellphone.
Maybe it's a sign to get a new phone!
Anyways, I went for RG's chinese drama concert today and yes I was from chinese drama, now you know.
Hahah, Im not ashamed of it but I dont like how others associate this with those stage opera sorta thick pink white black makeup blabla.
In my opinion I think the juniors really put in alot of effort and did a really good job, considering the kind of manpower that we have which is not alot and it was definitely very pleasant to be in the school again, see these bunch of girls, and laoshi!!!

Yeah.
And guess what, I bought cookies for them but they kept telling me to hold onto it first and GUESS WHAT, at the end of the performance I FORGOT TO GIVE THEM OHMY slkdjfdslkfjs
So screwed up.
And then I dropped my phone so its completely dead now.
So I was damn sad and needed icecream so Marie's mum dropped me off at Sixth Avenue and I went to get Venezia and had lemon and tartufu in mind but GUESS WHAT, they ran out of both.
Talk about luck?
So I was still damn upset when I got home and bought myself tehping then NOT SWEET wth so I got even more pissed and just threw it away.

WTH.
Damn pissing off.
Sorry for the ranting.
Shower some love please.
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2006-05-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

DANCE NIGHT PICTURES FROM VIOLA!

Hiphop item my favourite! This ending dance gave Dance Night an ending with a bang! And all of them were so hot please.

Tian, Me, superstar V, Shan

clockwise: Me, Viola, Mingkiat, Elijah. At Clarke Quay after dance night.

Haha!

Sunflower we got for V

Alright love ya all!

2006-05-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

Sigh..

2006-05-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

That was fun!

2006-05-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

GERRARD IS LOVEEEE!

Check out the time and the score man!

2006-05-13T13:15:00.000+08:00

I just got back from a swim with the Dad, the Mum and Nick and guess what!!!!!!
It had to rain, darn.
But it was still all fun & good :)

Lets evaluate my life at the current! And show you other stuff in my new polkadotted notebook.

Oh, I didnt add in love.. But I already have so much love! Hahaha..

#1 my pretty pretty notebook :) #2 Singing in the rain.. with lotsa sunshine too. #3 "A lover stabs you in the heart A stranger stabs you in the front A friend rubs you in the back But a best friend does not carry knives" I found this scribbled on one of the tables in the Lecture Theatre. #4 Just to show that I do listen in Bio ;)

Fresh from the bath!
Yay, the rain has finally stopped.
Im off to church now love you guys!

2006-05-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

New lay.
I think Ill run into plenty of problems with this template in the future.
Its not original btw, I got ideas from someone's livejournal and modified to blogger.
The links are gone, I hope thats alright.. but feedback if you guys want the links back on yeah.

Yawn, look at the time.
As Bryanboy would say, "Im knackered to the bone." Haha.

There was a red sky in Tuesday's morning.
Goodnight, all my loved ones.

Love,
Huiting.

2006-05-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today we made our math teacher cry.
& Ive been such a horrible student to her, not paying attention, not doing tutorials, handing math assignments 1 week later.
And she's such a wonderfully nice teacher but to think tomorrow will be her last lesson with us :(

So much tears have been shed recently, dont you think?
MAN.

God take away all these hurt please.

2006-05-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

It is so damn dangerous to place your mind body soul and everything that you are on a one person that is going to make or break you.

2006-05-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Love, life and why.

2006-05-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

There is a grasshopper on the ceiling above me.
I love my cell.
A halfnaked man is looking at his plants at the balcony of a flat opposite mine.
Am currently having soupy snax mushroom, all my hair is gna fall out tomorrow.
Steven Gerrard is too cute.
Dance night was good & the whole world was there, even Nicol and Joy.
(VIOLA was so hawt! pictures another day when I get them from V.)
Im going to bathe in 5 minutes.
Elijah's msn nick makes me smile.
Alanis Morisette's playing.
I bought new stationary today.
I forgot if it's stationery or stationary.

The smell of rain thrills, good sleep tonight.
I have a craving for humjinbeng.
Kero is my primary school classmate.
Nick is deflating the hip-hip-pooh-day! balloon my classmates got me on my birthday.
My ipod's comatose is frustrating me like mad.
Yesterday my maid cooked steamed egg when I wanted hardboiled ones.
I want to go on a cruise trip with friends.

Random bouts of randomness.
Good day everyone!

2006-05-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

As mel puts it 'you think you very cute is it'.

Aiya Huiting, why so emo? Dont be sad for nothing la, it's like how dumb.
Stop trying to act pitiful and gain sympathy, tell you a secret? Im not that broken actually.

I am alright, really.
I think I just need some rest for the soul, to pause and reflect on the whirlpool that is my LIFE.

My, my, my, I, I, I, I.
I AM SO NOT PLEASED WITH MYSELF.

Shit la, I am lost for words already.

2006-05-03T19:38:00.000+08:00

Why. The colours in this room, they seem to blind me.
I am becoming the person I dont want to be.

I cant see.

2006-05-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, happy mayday.
Im feeling like crap right now, I mean physically.
Must have caught the flu bug somewhere since everyone seems to be falling sick.
There is bio spa tmr so I cant miss school, crappy.

So sorry for this boring post, but adverts:

Vote for yaozhen for house captain, all you buckle-buckleans, as requested.

And erm, Ive been reading http://bryanboy.com and all of you should go read it too.
It's hilarious.

Alrighty Im gna go pop a pill and Im off to bed, haha look at the time!
Goodnight, all my loved ones.

2006-05-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

I just had a long and deep conversation with Xuanyi, please bear with me.

Christian commercialism - I feel like sometimes churches play rock music during praise and worship more so to appeal to the young, as a form of evangelism, than to actually worship God & xuanyi replied that the young people will of cos be attrached to the drum set electric guitar esp if they are 1st time visitor..
Sometimes, we evangelise the wrong way.
I find it sad the way churches are viewed by others now - a social club, rock concerts, some even said, 'to get hitched.'

Im disappointed that more and more people are visiting churches first time for the various wrong reasons, and not because of what they have heard about Jesus.
I cannot say that we as christians do not have a part in creating this sort of impression in others..
and I also cannot say that it is absolutely truthless, because as xuanyi and I eventually came to a concensus, (in her words) 'I think generally non-christians come to church not really to know God more. And sadly, I think some christian are doing that as well.'

On a separate note,
personally, I definitely did not go to church the first time to know more about God.
I also did not accept christ purely because I felt God's presence, honestly, there was some element of peer pressure.
But I can at least now say that I am growing spiritually and like I said before, accepting Christ has been the best thing that has happened to me.

So maybe it's not too bad a thing afterall, Christian commercialism.

I really should go get some sleep, long day ahead tomorrow.

2006-04-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today is a day I lost alot of hair. Literally.
I just plucked my eyebrows myself and it looks horrendous now SHIT!!! aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaahhhhhhhaaa CRAP.
I cut my hair at far east today. At least that one is alright.
Nooo my BROWS. :(

xuanyi: "see la, vain pok"
@)#($*)(@#*$)@#(*$)(@#*)(#*&$()@

Let me go mourn.

Im so confused about my plans for tmr.
Pw in school tmr morning, and then what?
Movie with mel, sarah, mulia, or with tp? ~~or meet xuanyi?~~
Be a good girl and do my math? Or satisfy my shopping urges?

Haha, Im a retard.
Anyways I had alot of fun with Olives today :D

I havent said this in a long long long time,

LOVE LOVE FULL OF LOVE!! HAHAHAHA

2006-04-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

Au-naturel's HUNDREDTH POST!
Hooray!

Anyway first and foremost,
thank you suejen! and faith! and the rest of my cell members for the cake :)
Joint celebration with Tall Aaron, happy birthday too, boy!
The cake was yummy! Haha.

Worship today was great!!

God sings,

"Im reaching for your heart
I hold your life in My hand
Drawing you closer to Me
May My power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see you face to face,
I love you
In everything that you do."

:) so sweet.. I was really touched ♥

And then theres the much anticipated chelsea-manutd match.
Man Utd is damn suck! MY GOSH 3-0 is like how suck.
I mean, even though Liverpool also quite suck when they lost to Chelsea 4-1, at least Liverpool hurt chelsea twice (champs league and FA)! Liverpool ♥_♥ !
Hahaha, sorry, I feel good digging man u fans =P

God really gives me lots of emotional strength, thank You Jesus!
Alrighty, goodnight world!

2006-04-29T11:40:00.000+08:00

"Dear God,
help me to remember that there's nothing thats going to happen today that You & I cant do together."

You dont know how much a simple gesture as such helped, finding this msg in my inbox first thing in the morning.
Thanks, Andrea.

I have been really childish, forgive me.
Timon asked why Im always so moody these days.. and I really shouldnt be.
Im troubled over things that really shouldnt matter, things that arent worth it.
I think I just needed to feel like Im the luckiest girl in this world, but I forgot that Im asking for too much.
I dont want to become jaded.

God, fill this emptiness & I pray to be renewed with the Holy Spirit once more.

2006-04-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

BURP.
Im so full, 7/11 ♥s went to glasshouse Fish n Co today! :D
& Jenna and Viola were so sweet, they requested for a birthday dedication by the live performers, BUT THEN they asked me to go up to sing! (!!??!?)
I was damn nervous & scared la so they got Viola to sing Love Me with me.
Heehee, evidently Im feeling alot better!

PICTURES! (which are ~~mostly~~ all blur cos I didnt take with flash cos I dont like flash so Ill only put up a few.. sorry.)

Haha, Daniel & Elijah!!!

when life hands you lemons, just make lemonades Elijah! hahahah

HI JENNA BENENA!

Do you know what theyre doing with that freaking calculator?
Calculating the bill.I hate to do that the most.
Divide, add GST blabla.. damn irritating I dont like.

I had a bad hair today.
Actually, almost everyday this week.
So maybe it's just bad hair - need to cut hair.

Goodnight everyone!

2006-04-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

Lets just say my birthday today was, bittersweet.
But it was quite sucky, actually.
Jellybean and Island Creamery must have been my lifesavers today, and it's true- icecream's a happy food.
Thank you mk and kenny for the attempts to cheer me up, and everyone else who remembered.

Jellybean, the Jap's stall aunty's daughter. Shes so cute, we are going to meet outside the bookshop at 2pm tmr! Haha.

Sorry for the lack of pictures, I wasnt really in the mood.
Happy birthday, self.

2006-04-24T21:55:00.007+08:00

Hi.
Good day today.
Maybe it's the rain, but now Im feeling as though someone just threw me -234909 levels down the sea.

Sometimes I just feel like just going to church even on non-service days to sit in the altar.
Just me & God alone.

2006-04-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

Hi friends..
I am troubird.
I think Ive problems learning how to say "Yes God..", and really mean it.
That means do the things that I do according to His will, to live by the standards He sets.
What are His standards?

I struggle, because I refuse to give up certain things in life.
God says, "Honour your parents".
& I know thats the right thing to do cos God's plans can only prosper me, but that is at the expense of some things that I treasure so dearly.
Because some things cannot be surrendered so easily, you know?

How now brown cow? :(

[edit]

sneha says:
and you know.
you're not stupid. have faith in yoruself at the very least, and all around you, to help you make the right decisions.
and its not like life doesnt have second chances. the world can surprise you sometimes, with how forgiving it is. (:

I think Ive been far too afraid.
Thank you dearest, I miss you lots.

2006-04-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

Come Holy Spirit

fall on me now.

I need Your anointing,

come in Your power.

People that made a (positive) difference, in no particular order

Sarah Tian Jenna Mingkiat Elijah Daniel Huishan Paul Viola Hakeem Indra Pay Weiren Wenxin Mitchell Benny Gloria Xueling Shaf Mel Gina Candice Olives Marcus Samueloliver Eric David Kenneth Suejen Faith Shuching Ziying Benji Aaron Daryl Genesis Jeanette&Samuel Nicky Xuanyi Nicol Janice Lois Andrea Abby Amanda Germaine Shawn Clara Javine Sherlyn Zhehan Kenny(11years of friendship!) Stuart Jerome Isaac Shouyee Amelia Shihui Siok Jenn Chuwen Arianne Hobing Ben Bobo Ahmad(coffeebean) Vania Sneha Vanessa Annabel Marie Yunlin Melho Jac Puisan VanessaLum Dad Mum Nicky Sis Nic Jilyn Justin Timothy Eunice Sabrina Nicolette Zheru Bryan Cheemun Mulia Cheryl Grace Sheralyn Harumi Jeremy Sengkong Chenkai Danny Sherwin Miaomiao Barney Joanne Ruth Xueting Dew Melanie Jocelyn Iryantee Peizhen Novita Choyiu Maxine Esmond Zul Chloe Xianhui Yacong Timon Yaozhen Jerik Chaolun Suelynn Dheesha Vani Jingyu Josephine Tamara PastorJoyce Zhengxin MsAliceYong (piano teacher when I was really young) MdmSim(pri chinese) MsTeo(pri netball) MsTeo(pri chinese too) EndoSensei MsKoHakChin(sec math) MrAndrewChia(sec bio) HuangLaoShi (drama teacher) MsCheang(JC math) Gu-Ma Justinchiam Andre Qingqing Dawn Hannah Avonne Alison Michelle Carmen CherylTay MsEvaHor MsOliviaTan DeborahTan Aunty(that sells rojak at the coffeeshop downstairs) Justina Keefe Kahwei Mingqing Xiaoyu Marshall Tp Shinjung Lulu Steven Dave Jared Jingcong Lincoln Alvin Rachel

And of course my dearest God.

& possibly many more whom I cannot recall at this moment.
I remember Marcus doing this many months ago and I wanted to do the same.
These people, some of them Im hardly even close to and have only spoken to them a few times, or Ive drifted from them for a very long time since.
I bet ~~half~~ two-third of them dont even read this..
But I just wanna sincerely thank these people for making a difference in my life, big or small.
Even if it means little actions like talking to me and making me smile, brightening my days.. teaching me the little lessons in life, I really appreciate it.

Today is self-declared appreciation day.

Love you guys as always.

2006-04-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

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Because he says I dont blog about him, so there.
Haha, no la.
Mingkiat is my best bud for one econs class (inside joke) and although he looks like a gangster(I initially thought he was scary), Mingkiat is a very nice guy I like mingkiat it is very easy to talk to him about any and everything ~~and I also realise that Mingkiat is a Sensitive New Age Guy!~~
And talking to mingkiat never fails to brighten my days and I like the high 5s that he gives me. :)
Okay now, you better tag.

ANYWAY :)
Dont know, Im in a good mood now!
Good day today, Im so glad that Econs test is over & I actually think that I can do alright for it, hopefully!
Then it was the rugby match, RJ vs SA. I like. So exciting. RJ 13 SA 7.

the team after the victory!

I had to rush to J8 after the match to meet mulia, cheemun & cheryl. Movie, dinner, and lots of talking. My cam batt ran out soon after so,

in the cinema la, we watched 16blocks which I felt was only alright.. the rest of them loved it though.

Oh, I hurt my right ankle today, cos I missed a step like omg how loser is that. I dont like stairs. I have a phobia for stairs. I still remember I fell at the steps below the parade square after morning assembly where the whole wide world is there to see. Crappy.

More pictures click here!

2006-04-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hi ______, I know youre reading this. I think it's really sad & pathetic that our only form of communication is reduced to the occassional 'hi's along the corridor, and my entries (if you even consider that as communicating). & Im sorry things are so awkward between us.. I wish it was better. Well, not your fault. I know. :(

Its taken much too long to get it right, would it be so wrong to maybe find someone a Miracle? & all you really need, is everything you could never be, and so you'd give it all for a miracle. Is there a trace inside her face of a lonely miracle? And so you wait and lie awake for a lonely miracle. You never really know what it is- not until it goes & if it comes again, it's a miracle. But what you miss is love, and everything below and up above, & could she bring it all- a miracle? All you wanted was a, all you needed was a miracle, a miracle. And all you wanted was a, all you needed was a miracle, a miracle. Its taken so long to get it right, could it be so wrong to maybe find someone, a Miracle.

Miracle, Vertical Horizon.

To everyone else, hello.
I love everything about Vertical Horizon.
This song makes me really sad. The bittersweet aftertaste in it sorts of sums up the kind of strange.. whatever Im getting.

Its so strange, I guess this is what it means for a girl to have moodswings.
You know, during Math yesterday Mingkiat asked "huiting, are you happy?" & I could still manage a "Im happy because theres absolutely no reason for me to be upset" but on the same day itself, these bouts of life-sucks suddenly hit me in full force, fully knowing that life does not suck at all..
& the worst thing is, I dont know why it came.

(Okay the whatever shit I wrote at the top doesnt really count, I think. I mean.. it's sad, but it's not that significant either. Sorry Im so vague.)

SO EMO BABY.
Okay, even still,
I love all my friends & family & God.
All of you take care.

2006-04-18T20:50:00.000+08:00

I was so amused just now, my dad showed me the papers and I found my big aunt and uncle there - interviewed for going to the airport and getting Lee Young Ae's (Chang Jin) autograph hahah!
I feel so guilty towards my math teacher (are you troubird?) because shes so nice & funny but Im doing other stuff during lectures and not doing my math hw.

OKAY, PI PI PI.
I MUST NOT BE DISTRACTED!!!!

*****

[10:28pm]

Okay hi, I think Im the biggest sucker in this world, I HAVENT FREAKING STARTED PI!

Crappy.

Random pictures.

Okay. I will do my PI. Promise.

2006-04-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Goodbye blue Monday,

no one to drag me out of bed

no more signing on at ten

Ill be a starving star instead.

Bye-bye, bye blue Monday,

Bye-bye, bye blue Monday.

Hello!

The moon is beautiful tonight :)

Hmm, nothing much to say.. Just like to let you guys know that all's good, (even with the failed bio paper) Im happy and well!

See told you, the canteens in a crazy mess.

Goodnight, world! :)

2006-04-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

Dont know why, but I suddenly felt like talking to good old Marcus again. I hope he responds.

Have a blessed week, everyone. :)

2006-04-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

I must blog this before I forget.

Yesterday night I felt horribly disappointed because after interceding for some of my good friends (whom I shall not name) to get to know God or rededicate themselves to God this Easter service, my invitations still got rejected. It felt like God wasnt listening to my prayers at all?
As though all my prayers and fasting were in vain & therefore my faith was shaken.. For that period I forgot that God is in control & I kept asking 'why?' and 'how?, and I also lost the desire to pray for the lost sheep, I opened my Easter prayer booklet, took a glance at it, closed it and went to sleep.

I talked to Elijah about it and he said 'well you just have to continue praying for them. it may take months or even years before they are saved'. Today when I was on Pastor Joyce's car back home she told me how it is actually very rare for people to want to come to church & that she also was rejected many many times before some of her secondary school classmates visited her church.

Then it dawned on me that this is what it means, persevering prayers. That we've to stand in the gap and keep praying for these backslided christians or pre-believing friends. And I finally understood what it meant by 'the journey ahead is going to be tough'. There will be many obstacles and disappointments like these as I walk my journey with God and they are God's challenges to me. I will serve him, I will serve him, I'll face these challenges bravely but at the same time I'll bow down at His feet and surrender all to Him because God is in control. I will have faith that He can do anything. I will have faith in His promises.

Today as I was on the my way to church, the sky outside seemed especially lovely after the rain. I thought it was bursting with happiness. Then I suddenly had a vision of me being in heaven sitting among the fluffy clouds, seeing little angels and cherubs playing the trumpet and there He is, cloaked in that dark red cloak and shoulder-length hair, glowing in all majesty and radiating with love, smiling at the view before him.

At that moment I felt so at peace. It felt like nothing else really matters in this whole world than to serve my Lord Jesus. As though the materialistic cares and the worrying of my career future dont mean a thing, because what awaits me has already been taken of - it is an eternal life of happiness. Maybe you will say that I am deluded, but God is good, all the time! & All the time, God is good! :)

Just like to share with you a few verses.
Hebrews 11:35-36, 39
'Do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord, no matter what happens. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so you will continue to do God's will.'
'But we are not like those who turn their backs on God and seal their fate. We have faith that assures our salvation.'
Luke 11:5-13
'Then, teaching them more about prayer, he used this illustration: "Suppose you went to a friend's house at midnight, wanting to borrow three loaves of bread. You would say to him, 'A friend of mine has just arrived for a visit and I have nothing to eat.' He would call out from his bedroom, 'Dont bother me. The door is locked for the night, and we are all in bed. I cant help you this time.' But I tell you this- though he wont do it as a friend, if you keep knocking long enough, he will get up and give you what you want so his reputation wont be damaged.

And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for. Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks.

You fathers- if your children ask for a fish, do you give them a snake instead? Or if they ask for an egg, do you give them a scorpion? Of course not! If you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him?'

Today is Good Friday, the day Jesus was persecuted on the cross many many years ago, humiliated and in pain. The day the spiritual curtains in the sky were torn apart to give us all who calls upon the name of Jesus to enter the kingdom of heaven.

& how much Ive received today.
Thank you, Jesus.

2006-04-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

hi, everythings not right again. (am I not to have hope?)

2006-04-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

I brought my cam to school!!

morning PE, we ran 3k, I hate running.

viola & huishan doing splits

Me, xiaoshan, viola- geishas for the day! :D Somehow I can picture harumi doing this pose very well haha. Anyway I really like my towel, I bought it at Hongkong Disneyland!

it is called magic towel or something like that cos when it's first bought its compacted until really tiny, no bigger than the size of a cookie, then you are supposed to soak it in water then it'll expand to become a towel like that!

♥XIAOSHAN!♥

ha ha

hi Lovely. (even with sweat & dirt)

HAHA tiantian doesnt like Elijah's face

because my sis said he looks cute from the side. Hehehelijahahah!

we went to watch polo finals, rj vs hci. Raffles in blue, HC in white, & I think this guy scored this goal.

Hot bods! From far I thought I saw Danny and commented that his bod damn hot but then after that I saw Danny walk past in school U.... ahaa case of mistaken identity! Cheat my feelings la. & Jeremy was so wei1 feng1! He came on already and then straight away score already!

Anyway we lost 4-5.. It was quite a close match but we were always trailing if Im not wrong. Missed a penalty, and a goal disallowed in the last quarter. Sad la. The match was quite exciting and nerve-wrecking at parts but then the people in front keeps blocking so it was damn irritating cos everytime they score and I wont be able to catch it )%(*@#)(* and the sa/ac? guys behind us were cursing all the way.

Okay goodnight.

2006-04-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

Andrea calls it, the traffic light. That God has a timing for different matters and sometimes the things we pray for to happen are not ready to be given the green light. Im a little disheartened :( Ive been praying and fasting for some revival to take place in those who has backslided but I havent been given anything fulfilling or satisfying. Am I not being devoted enough? Because I cant hear you, God. Tell me something, anything. I need your guidance, Lord.

2006-04-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hi all, Im going to be random.

At the other room I hear nick arguing with Dad
nick 'you are fat, no matter what you are still fat!'
dad 'see yourself in the mirror, look at your tummy, as big as your head still want to say'
nick 'youve got abs. no, wait you must add the f and l in front. FLABS. F - L - A - B - S. FLABS!'
Ahaha they are always always doing this to each other la its really quite funny, my daily dose of amusement.

My cousin's coming home this holidays & Im simply over the moon!

Please fast forward to June? Oh I still remember last time me and my sis pretended to be sailormoons I was the green one she was the yellow one.

I was given a rude awakening when I walked into the school today I thought got war or what suddenly the canteen so many hanging stuff, banners, posters, tissue boxes even. Council campaign is in full swing! VOTE VANESSA!!

Sarah the jib is really damn retarded there was this stretch of red carpety thing outside the canteen for campaigning stuff I think and she said 'come huiting lets walk the red carpet together then like kings and queens like that!' hahaha I LOVE SARAH.

The flowers are all in full bloom now, decorating the trees with shades of pink and white, very pretty! But I think guys dont appreciate this kind of things Jeremy gave me a erm-im-a-guy look when I remarked about this splendid scenery, WHY! ~~spring~~ summer day city lights now you are in paradise. Okay I am really random today you know??

I saw a really really really really really really really pretty dress at Holland V the other day and I totally fell in love with it. Its like beigy satin with bluish off-green lace/lining and polkadots then got ribbon below the boobs there and OHMY it is really very nice la Im so in love with it BUT it is like 179 bucks la and I am how broke? I have like, 85 cents to last me througout the whole week AHAA Im a joke.

Hey you know what, I think Im in a really good mood today with no particular reason, just one of those days when you feel light and relaxed and laughing and just having fun oh and Im actually learning things from the new Chem lectures and I never play tetris today -pats own back. :D

I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

2006-04-09T23:26:00.001+08:00

JENN & MES

their rendition of My Humps over msn. HAHA, enjoy ;)

http://www.blogupload.com/62728/my_humps.wav

2006-04-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

I could have been over at Jenn's, gone out with Cheemun, or shopped at Holland V, but instead I cooped myself up at home watching Da Chang Jin..until the politics got too heavy. Man seems like Ive wasted my Sunday away! Well actually it aint such a waste to have such alone time with the family, its nice to be home. :)

Fasting for the past four days have taught me many things. Through this small ordeal I learnt to appreciate the support I get from cell cos knowing that Suejen and Faith are fasting along together with me gives me great comfort that Im not the only one making this sacrifice for God. I learnt also to rely more on God's strength cos when Im hungry I think of God & that pulls me through the day till I break fast.

wacky dad & nick, outside the restaurant yesterday.

You took your coat off and stood in the rain, youre always crazy like that. I watched from my window, always felt I was outside looking in. You were always the mysterious one with
dark eyes and careless hair you were fashionably sensitive but too cool to care. You stood in my doorway, youve got nothing to say, besides some comment on the weather. Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see, this is my heart, bleeding before you. This is me down on my knees & these foolish games are tearing me apart, your thoughtless words are breaking my heart. Breaking my heart... Youre always brilliant in the morning, youre smoking your cigarettes & talking over coffee. Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you, you loved Mozart, and you speak of your loved ones, as I clumsily strum my guitar. Well excuse me, cause Ive mistaken you for somebody else, somebody who gave a damn, somebody more like myself.
And these foolish games are tearing me, tearing me, tearing me apart & your thoughtless words are breaking my heart... Youre breaking my heart. You took your coat off and stood in the rain.
Youre always crazy like that.

Foolish Games, Jewel.

2006-04-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

http://artpad.art.com/?ixet33112wsg

2006-04-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

This whole opening ceremony thing is such a phoney. Just because the PM is coming so we've to come school at 830 when it only starts at 10? Just because the media is coming thats why weve to repaint the walls, put up the names of the library and lt 2, build this, build that? I dont even remember RG doing such things when the president came to our school. Just cos of this overrated opening ceremony that the school actually closed down the canteen, do this and do that. So.. fake.

Speaking of which, I think girls are a whole lot faker than guys are, and perhaps its why I find it easier to read their thoughts. Of course, there are exceptions like Mr. Tepee who confuses me like, almost all the time. But anyhow, I find like sometimes we girls do this or this in order to achieve or tell others something underlyingly like read-between-the-lines, and it is irritating. Ohya I mean of cos sometimes I am guilty of that too.

Huishan just reminded me that theres no school on Monday and THIS IS CAUSE FOR JUBILIATION!!!!!

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY, I LOVE YOU.

2006-04-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

A few things that made me happy this week:

-I received a surprise gift from Arianne today, it's a Liverpool badge. Hahaha SO CUTE Ariannes such a sweet :) it really really made my day when I got home and saw it. Im gna wear it to school tmr!!! HAHA.
-Some of the class people went to Island Creamery today after school! Icecream makes me happy! I like that place alot, actually. They have free pocky :D and we left our marks on the doodling wall!
-Bobo says he misses me! Haha, Bobo is a friend I made while studying my ass off in coffeebean last year. I havent been there in ages because me and the manager there got like bad blood and I freaking dislike him alot because he always picks on me and chases us off, idiot. Am going to get my brownie treat from Bobo next week :D
-I beat Paul's 3rd highscore in Tetris (14000 plus ok!) and to reward me he bought me chocolate and at that time I was really troubled and moody, so the kinder buenos really came in handy. (I think Im like, a pig, because most of this is food/chocolate-related)
-Bio test is O V E R! It was big and bad and.. bio? Okaaayyy not funny. Well it's a huge burden off me now! :)
-Caught up with hobing after he spontaneously sent a 'happy friendship week' sorta msg! Talking to hobing is like.. I dont know, so at ease? I can say anything I want and it just turns out right and the conversations we have are so laidback and nice, my point is it is very nice talking to hobs again.
-On Tuesday I didnt go for maths lecture and when I went to the canteen, I saw Mel! (who also didnt go for maths lect haha) so we sat and talked and then afterwards we saw gina and olives who were having break! so we all sat down and talked, and laughed, and be retarded all over again. Very heartwarming to just talk to my close girl friends :)

Something scary happened today. You know after econs lecture every friday (today was friday's timetable) the class people will hang around the LT to hold our mini talkshow hosted by motivational speakers, Mingkiat & Elijah, then we'll be playing with the mikes, and piano backstage, running around kicking balls, singing, doing all the retarded things cos our school ended already, and today was the same la. And then theres this J2 guy that always comes in while we were playing and giving us weird stares and apparently he was the same guy that locked the guys up in the male toilet? So mk and elijah went to confront him and it was really scary la like it was quite fierce.. almost gna fight like that. I dont know la maybe I noob or what but I really never see fights before? And today was probably the closest la mk held him by the collar and called him fatass, and elijah just pretend to act seh (but it was quite funny his actions). Then a j2 class came into the LT so we all had to leave and ya that was the end of it.

Im going to fast for the next few days leading up to Easter Journey which is on the 15th, to pray for the lost sheep and for them to rededicate to God again. Suejen says fasting is a way of self purification to receive His holy words. By abstaining food, which is considered a temptation, we become spiritually cleansed and more alert to His call for us through suffering. Its my first time fasting & I dont actually know how to go about doing it so I could use some help, really. Id be really delighted to see some of my friends return to the ways of God.

The song Goodbye My Lover has been stuck in my head forever since Viola started singing it. You cant break my spirit, its my dreams you take. I feel so directionless sometimes, Ive absolutely no idea what I wna be next time. A news presenter, psychologist, or even opening a beachside cafe (haha)? And then, what H3 to take?? Im at a lost man.

2006-04-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Faraway, I feel your beating heart all alone beneath the crystal stars, staring into space, what a lonely face, I'll try to find my place with you. What a beautiful smile, can I stay for awhile? On this beautiful night we'll make everything right, my beautiful love. Larger than the moon, my love for you, worlds collide as heaven pulls us through. The secret of the world is written in the stars, I'm carrying your heart in mine. Maybe a greater thing will happen, maybe all will see, maybe your love will catch like fire as it burns through me. Lalalala Love, My Beautiful Love.

-Beautiful Love, The Afters.

Im so sorry the chunk of all my recent entries have been simply song lyrics but I think they are all written very beautifully and it gives me a very warmy comfy feeling & I hope you feel the same reading or listening to them!

I feel like a walking contradiction because I know in my head that my life at this point has no reason at all for me to be upset or be emo or whatever this feeling is, yet I still feel it. This emptiness that bites off me, leaving me cold at times, hard and brittle. I(r)onic? Sorry for the pun.

2006-04-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

I just want to say I really hate my lack of self-discipline & here Im, sitting on the com and blogging, instead of caring about my bio lecture test which is TOMORROW and I really cant study at home, theres so many distractions, just too many of them, I am so dead. This is quite a pointless entry, goodbye. Oh wait, dont know if you are reading this but I want to say: dear LOIS, please get well soon!!! poor girl fractured her arm during her judo competition in Macau :( Pray for her alright?

Hello, good morning, how'd You do? What makes Your rising sun so new? I could use a fresh beginning too, all of my regrets are nothing new. So this is a way, that I say I need You, this is a way this is a way that Im learning to breathe Im learning to crawl Im finding that You and You alone can break my fall. Im living again, awake and alive, Im dying to breathe in these abundant skies. Hello, good morning, how'd You been? Yesterday left my head kicked in. I never, never thought that I would fall like that, never knew that I could hurt this bad. This is a way that I say I need You, this is a way that I say I love You, this is a way that I say I'm Yours. This is a way, this is a way, yes Im dying to breathe in.

-Learning To Breathe, Switchfoot.

2006-03-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

you never smile the way you used to do I see you trying but it's just not you. what is wrong and what is right? Marvin said he tried, he just couldn't get through maybe it's a line he's just not used to. what went wrong and what went right? tell me do you plan this pain, does it come down on you like the rain? is there something I can say to you? I can't stop the storm but I can cover you. there's something in the doorway between you and me from my angle it's too hard to see. tell me would you please humor me do you care about me then care about yourself or carry on your way all by yourself your sinking ship is drowning me. every now and then I think of how it used to be, the power you would send would light up the city for miles around. you were never alone I can see you struggle and I can feel your pain I think we're headed for trouble are we falling apart again.

2006-03-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

So we have cupcakes over tea & sitting on the swing,

yet.. a strange quietness sets upon us.

2006-03-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

I am just pretty darn amazed at how quickly the weekend has passed and Ive not done a single work. & I cant log into msn grr.

Ive no mood to blog. So, pictures.

Saturday

service.

our dearest cell leader- nick, whos leaving for army soon :(

kenneth, eric, daryl, benji.

samuel, eric, benji. talking about the liverpool-everton match, what else. Haha liverpool won btw, 3-1. Gerrard red card dont know whats becoming of him man but I still ♥ oh forgot to mention that liverpool thumped birmingham 7-0 in FA cup!!! how pro is that.

sunset (not very well taken, I admit)

me, suejen, faith, ziying outside Island Cremary, the icecream was really yummy.

Sunday.

We watched yours, mine & ours. It was alright although me and viola cried. The lighthouse part was so aww.

viola & jenna, looking retarded haha.

jenna & hakeem. they were too full.

mingkiat and elijah... trying to steal the (lime)light? hahah.

mingkiat and playboy mansion bouncer elijah.

pretty viola.

elijah, spontaneously posing the lianz~ way.

Thats all.

2006-03-25T10:43:00.000+08:00

HONG KONG TRIP'05!

[THIS IS MUCH MUCH DELAYED]

4 little girls went on a learning jouney to Hongkong last november where we had alot of fun heehee :D

ps: it was incredibly difficult to upload pics with screwed up blogger!!! sdlkjf. okay enjoy :)

DAY 1:

before flying off! I dropped my bag's strap and so I panic then I ran all the way back to get it back! :)

We were kiasu (actually me only) and arranged to meet at 545 at the airport but I ended up being the one late hahaha. We said our goodbyes to our parents (and my dad was like trying to act cool, telling Olives' mum 'aiya children grow up already must let them be independent' bullshit lo he talk rubbish actually he damn scared then in the end he was the one that kept saying 'must be careful ah! watch your bag at all times k! remember to kiap your handbag between your arms hor! nu ren jie (ladys street) there got alot of theft cases! blablablablablabla...') and went past the departure gates. At that moment I was like 'FREEDOM!' hawhaw so naughty.

K then finally! we reached HK! At Disney's Hollywood Hotel which we stayed for the 1st 2 days. We.. treasured our time there cos the next hotel is totally eck =/ The hotel's really quite pretty everything theres Mickey, even the shower gel caps were mickey shaped! Brought back some for souvenir's sake :) Oh when we checked in the reception person were fussing over how we were all only sixteen grrr then she dont let us buy the things from the minifridge! But nvm dont spoil our mood so we went touring around the area.

the big hollywood hotel sign!

At the garden behind the hotel!

After we checked in and made sure everything was more or less settled we headed downtown. There was a Disney's MRT (they call it MTR) station! Damn chio right! Like Harry Potter like that. Magic* (Elijah? haha okay no link) with gold dust sprinkled all over and the cabins are also very very nice and special feel like a princess okay just kidding.

Everything also Mickey lo they damn bad to Donald my boyfriend.

So we went to Tsim Sha Tsui which is like the Orchard of Hongkong, and got totally lost there ahaha! We tried to act pro then got no guide no parents then jialat la. And plus Mel was the only one that actually understood Canto but she cld only speak the basic stuff so half the time we were trying to turn chinese words to sound canto or doing retarded actions to try to get our msg across. Ate some sucky meal for lunch but nvm it got better after the days! Nothing much in the first day.. we went to shop at erm. Whats it called. Harbour City! Ya.. erm. shopping centre next to the harbour, duh.

We ♥ Ben&Jerrys!

We were really like abit lost for the first day so after that we just went back to the hotel and talked. And ate.

Then sleep already. Our earliest night btw. ;)

DAY 2:

First thing in the morning we went to DISNEYLAND!

We went to this restaurant inside Disneyland for our breakfast and I felt like we were in Beauty & The Beast. Very nice the ambience, I liked it. Even the waiters and waitresses were dressed like those in Disney movies so aiya just very nice sorry limited vocab.

see I never bluff you! Mickey-shaped mango pudding!! Then there were also mickey-shaped waffle with icecream, mickey this, mickey that.

Full & happy, we tried to act brave and went to take the rollercoaster, which was like, the only rollercoaster there.

our first and most fun/exciting/interesting/cool (haha) ride- Space Mountain! Reminds me off final destination3 kk. Anyway, the rides at Hongkong Disney is quite sucky.. this ride is like okok only but the rest are really.. like merry go round, spin the cup that kind of thing you know??

Spinning Cups! Haha nice photography, Candice ;)

At Adventure Land. The elephant is fake.

We crowded around to watch the parade! Its like chingay style and very well done actually. BTW I had a freaking heart attack just now cos my com like crashed and omg! luckily I could recover the post!?!?! I spent like 3+ hours on this entry (say thank you) and the opportunity cost of it is my undone bio and math tutorial and econs test!?!?

PICSPICSPICSPICSPICS

Went shopping at the very magical shops also! Bought some souvenirs for friends and those chocolates and cookies came in really cute containers which one of them is now used to store my earrings. Cute stuff I like.

Oh and the princesses were really pretty also. We saw the beauty and the beast one and snow white but we didnt manage to take personal pictures with them when they went for the photo-taking sessions cos just when we were about to queue, the person said cannot! cos we were too late and she was about to leave already. then like hai:(

But SURPRISE SURPRISE! I knew my boyfriend Donald missed me la so he and his mistress (how dare he) Daisy came to the hotel to look for us and omg! Mel steal my boyfriend!? Flirt. Like rectangle-relationship. Ha ha.

Creative...?? Or maybe just lame. Heehee.

Anyway, we stepped onto platform 9 3/4 and took the magic train to Lan Kwai Fong and into this pub called The Fong! Haha makes sense? It was fun, lotsa girly fun, chilling, laughing, nice music, nice drinks, and of course camwhoring. Oh ya it was POSER NIGHT! (with all the caps and all that). Song choice was good then when they played My Humps and were singing to it we were all like AIYA gina should have been here then she'd get all high and all that. See la you gina.

:) Sweet love. At 2+ we went back to Disneyland the themepark to take more pics cos we thought the lightings would be really pretty at night but when we went back we found that.... THEY FREAKING TURNED OFF THE LIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! noooOOoOOoo. Haha. We were abit high from the drinks and so we were abit ki siao I think.

The crazy things we do, like flying on brooms and making friends with the patrol policeman, or turn into monkeys trying to catch mermaid. I love you my friends :)

DAY 3:

No more staying at Disney :( Checked into a sucky hotel.. like really it was small and..eck.

the door. look at the carpet?

wall

it was small so we joint the 2 beds (I think Olives was complaining)

the bathroom was like small too. typically hongkong cos overpopulation. And the shower head had like, green stuff?? ee.

our mEss.

Then we were like eck lets get out of this place and come back reallyreally late cos the hotel so sucky. We took a train down to Mongkok and ate DIMSUM!!! I love dimsum so yummy la hargow siewmai lo pak gao. omgosh I miss it!!! it was the same restaurant that me and my family went last time and its like cheap and nice so yay happyhappy!

keep on demonstratin', my love, my love my love my love, you love my lady lu- loveyou mEs.

Nu ren jie was in Mongkok so we went there to shop.. there wasnt anything much though, got some stuff for nick and sis but my favourite buys were the earrings! 3 pairs for Singapore 10bucks those dangly kind. worth it anot huh i also dont know. Afterward we went to this street called bo xie jie means something (i dont know what) shoe street and basically the wholeeee long stretch of road were filled with sport shops that sold lots of nike, adidas blablabla. I think Candice bought like 2 pairs of dunks and mel 1, theyre all quite nice. I bought my black puma bag there! Shopped all the way there till late, and then we went back to Da Fong. ;) It was Poser Night II- Denim Jacket day!! hahaha

ryan b.john! the bartender!

Then it was 3+ already so we cabbed back to our sucky hotel but the freaking taxi driver see us xiao meimei then try to cheat our money and took us for a spin!? We didnt even end up at anyway near our hotel and we were all damn pissed off especially Mel cos he totally ignored Mel's canto questions (needs effort ma). Haha thats about it for day3.

DAY 4:

very few pics. Mel went off to meet her mum and her relatives for the day. Went to Causeway Bay which is like paragonish? I dont know how to compare it with Singapore. Candice went to cut her hair at the Esprit Salon and she hated it like mad afterwards and then me and olives were thinking up of ways to make it look better. olives:"you want I use pen help you draw your sideburns???" HAHA. Okay maybe it doesnt sound funny here but we sure had a good laugh. Oh and at the salon we saw this jay chou lookalike!! like totally lookalike I got a shock when Candice pointed him out to me!

Did the basic shopping, which actually wasnt much cos by that time everywhere was already winter clothes. Oh yes how can I miss out on XU LIU SHAN!? Its this mango dessert shop thats really famous in Hongkong. Needless to say we ate xuliushan at least once a day. Btw the xuliushan in HK is like waaaaAaAay better than that in SG, and they give larger portions also la! Even at the airport when we were waiting for our return flight, it was xuliushan! hahaha. Everybody go try. Oh yeah, we also tried other HK delights like egg balls? Its basically like crispy outside and soft inside and they looked like.. egg/balls. And then the curry HK fishballs, they were pretty yum too! Nice nice. Their fishball different from ours. Ours is like, bouncy and light but theirs is like.. thick and chewy? Bought the famous wife's cake, lao po bing and pineapple cakes for the family. Okay aiya, more pics.

bobbing tomato, potato?? and eggplant! okay random.

we went to play arcade at night! this is some drum thing like ddr like that but its by beats la twas quite funny hahaha look at olives that retard.

bags, shopping, luggage, bags, shopping.. you get the idea.

LAST DAY :(

We went Tsim Sha Tsui again to this Macau Restaurant (which is quite famous I think) and had breakfast there! Ate the Macau eggtarts, YUM! ahhhhh craving.. Afterwards we met up with Mel then we went shopping around that area. I was trying to look for a promdress at that time but then dont have. Then we bought this toy-like thing for our dear friends Tiantian and Gina that we played on the airplane ride damn addictive and fun la! Its like.. aiya how to describe? Ok dont describe. Mel bought a black eyed peas bag quite nice and Candice bought a bathing ape shirt. Then we realised that this particular area of Tsim Sha Tsui actually damn nice to shop but it was kind of too late! Cos no time had to rush back to get our stuff and head to the airport. Mel's uncle has a restaurant around that area so we got treated to a lunch there. It was our last meal.. :(

So we headed back, got our stuff, checked out, boarded the tour bus and headed to the airport. More camwhoring.

shades day, sort of. (oh we were at xuliushan, whats new.) Were spending time waiting to board the plane.

erm. on the plane? hahaha.

took more photos on the plane, and then there was this retarded looking pic of olives that candice was trying to show mel, and just at that time there was this steward that walked past and LOOKED at it then when he came back he was like 'anymore photos? (smirk)' hahaha then olives damn paiseh.

ALRIGHT NOW! some retarded photos!

Hongkong was a blast. Friendship bonds forged and strengthened through the times we laughed till we teared & taking care of one another. Twas a trip I never would forget, an experience of a lifetime. Im so thankful for you guys, and my really overprotective parents actually allowed me to go on this trip where I had so much fun with my girls. I know using the word 'love' too often would only devalue its worth, but in all sincerity and with all my heart,

I love you my dear friends.

2006-03-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

Its really quite damn tedious blogging about hongkong but soonsoon! :)

Anyway, today I damn suay you know. First block was Chem lecture & I was still sleepy so I brought hot milo in then the teacher caught me then asked me to leave it on the stairs then throughout the whole lecture I was like :( my milo~~~~

& after school 11 hearts went to the library cos got aircon then me elijah and daniel (and later mingkiat too) went to blogsurf and elijah went to impersonate others and tagged on mine, violas, huishan, and sarah's blog ahahah damn funny! I laugh until I teared.

huishan's:
p@U: i 1 2 TaKeZ yOuZ 2 e eNdz Of e LaiNbOWx~ & wAtChiNGx e StArz SpRaSh In 2 e SeAx!~**

viola's:
H@k33M~: =D HeYz! YoX! I IsH bErI cuTeX!! WeEeEeEeEeEeEeX BuAiXzXz~~**!!! HeEeeHehEHehEhehEHehE*!!!!

mine:
h@kEeM~: you are so chio! i am so hot! hEeEExzz*~!!!

And I personally like this one best.
xx.D@NiEZ GoHz.xx: HeYz!* YoUr BrOg IsH bEri fUnkYz & CoOl!! OoPs! AnD 89 aLsOz!!! HEEEExx!**~~~

AHAHAHA.

Anyway, we were apparently making alot of noise so the freaking librarian kao bei then she asked for me and mingkiat's ez link card and recorded our names :(

Alrighty! Love you guys :) Hongkong post will be up soon promise!

2006-03-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

omg! Candice just passed me the disc that contains all our HONGKONG PICS! kk blogging now... 352 freaking picssss!!! :D

2006-03-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

Luke 8:5-15

"A farmer went out to plant some seed. As he scattered it across his field, some seed fell on a footpath, where it was stepped on and the birds came and ate it. Other seed fell on shallow soil with underlying rock. This seed began to grow, but soon it withered and died for lack of moisture. Other seed fell among thorns that shot up and choked out the tender blades. Still, other seed fell on fertile soil. This seed grew and produced a crop one hundred times as much as had been planted."

"This is the meaning of the story: The seed is God's message. The seed that fell on the hard path represents those who hear the message, but then the Devil comes and steals it away and prevents them from believing and being saved. The rocky soil represents those who hear the message with joy. But like young plants in such soil, their roots dont go very deep. They believe for a while, but they wilt when the hot winds of testing blow. The thorny ground represents those who hear and accept the message, but all too quickly the message is crowded out by the cares and riches and pleasures of this life. And so they never grow into maturity. But the good soil represents honest, good-hearted people who hear God's message, cling to it, and steadily produce a huge harvest."

We ought to really fear God, shouldnt we? For the very same God that created this world by his own powers can surely crush each and every one of us so easily if we suffer from His wrath. Which plant described in the above verses represent us as Christians? Theres so many Christians in Singapore, in RJ even, but how many actually stand firm in our faith, and are so willing to serve and fight for God?

Are we merely Christians who acknowledge Jesus as our Savior, but only know how to pray for blessings for ourselves? Our dear Jesus to be put through so much pain, and humiliation on the cross, to be mocked at, to be whipped, beaten, spat on, stripped.. For what? For who? We all know the answer dont we. That Jesus hung there on the cross, humbled, and He was in so much pain, desperation, but He knew His purpose and willingly suffered for us, because He loved us so dearly and he knows His life is the only way to pay for our sins and grant us a life in Heaven.

And yet.. all He wants is for us to love him back. How unfair would it be for Jesus if we only know how to take take take take take from Him take His love take His blessings, but we do not learn to pay Him back, listen to His teachings, follow His ways, and failing to recipocrate His unconditional, forever love, even though we fully know how he has sacrificed for us. We become like the plants grown on thorny ground, too caught up in our own wordly life, simply just too selfish. Are we the kind of Christians who only know how to sing songs of worship when we go to church every Saturday/Sunday, listen to sermons, say a few prayers, talk to friends, make new friends and.. thats it? Thats all we can offer Him? I really cannot stand those who go to church to be entertained and socialise instead of worshipping God, to find girlfriends or even convert just to be their gf/bf. I think it's really disrespectful to God, stepping into His house yet treating Him like He isnt worth it. I think our God deserves so much better than that. Know this - what God has given us is priceless yet so free, and it is really all that we ever need.

It is difficult, I admit, to have to sometimes make sacrifices to follow His ways. But what is this, really, compared to how Jesus paid His life, for each and every one of us such that we can be cleansed and renewed by His blood? What are these small sacrifices, when what we get in exchange is so much more valuable. David once said that He'll never give something which doesnt cost himself anything to our dear Heavenly Father. Amen to that.

I know there are many cynical eyes out there thats reading this, questioning if I myself actually behave this idealistically. These pointing fingers who say "Huiting is just putting on a facade trying to all holy". I know that I myself fall short of what is expected of me as a Christian, but I am going to try. Because I want to love my God like He has loved us. Simple.

Our faith should stem from our fear in God, but more importantly, from our love for this God whom we as Christians acknowledge as our Maker, Healer, Redeemer, Saviour, Friend, Father, Lover.

2006-03-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

I hate it when I do things that disappoint others or cause them to be hurt. Sorry :(

That aside, Im having alot of fun in my new class :) Things really do get better and Im just.. very grateful for how much Ive been blessed with. Tomorrow got chem lecture test. How now brown cow. K I will study.. after I blog. (But then later got the 7pm show on ch55...) Haha shit I suck. I really lack discipline to study especially when Im at home. I get distracted by everything, com, piano, tv, brother, bed. Grr.

Grandma's bday on Sunday, we had International Buffet at some hotel. Can I just let the pics do the talking again?? Haha, the food was really good.

I thought this was pretty cute, my little cousin. Those stuff that hes holding in his hand were chocolate coated marshmallow and omg the fondue was absolutely ♥

THIS thing, sitting so majestically, is the CHOCOLATE FONDUE it was more like a chocolate fountain. I love it I love it I love it love it love it!!

With the marshmallows on bananaboat trays which my dad later stole it to make banana split HAHA it was pretty amusing.

SIX huge scoops of icecream. Crazy.

Baby Matthew and Uncle Thomas :)

Jeremiah and I ♥

Baby Janna - I love her big eyes.

Jeremiah on this funky huge sofa!

Sis and I. Ayy blur!

for fun

happy family!/the son-in-laws :)

THE END

2006-03-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

Hello :) Many fleeting thoughts Ive today.

When I was really young I had a babysitter, sort of like a nanny, to look after me cos both my parents were working and my grandparents already have too many grandkids (including my sister) to take care of, so I was the unlucky one, or not so unlucky, to be sent there. My nanny, I remember I used to call her gu1 ma1, as in aunt-mother??

She was probably around 50+ old then and I distinctly remember a mole on her face near her lips. She was tanned and had curly hair. I remembered her as a kind lady, always remembering to give me warm milo in a milk bottle when it's 3pm sharp, and I would lie face up on the rug of the floor happily sucking the bottle. And I also remember myself sneaking into her sons' bedroom when she was busy, and I would climb to the 'second floor' of the double-deckered bed and jump off there, and as I felt the wind in my skirts I would end my little dance with a twirl, imagining myself as snow white. Cheap thrill.

I was just wondering if she still remembers me, and if she would imagine how Ive grown to be. And although I dont know her name, except for being known affectionately as my gu ma, Im wondering if shes now this happy lady with a mole carrying her grandsons and a smile on her face.

I like this picture cos I think shes very pretty. HAHA.

*****

Im blogging from KAP (King Albert Park) now. Heehee so interesting. Daniel and Tiantian gna come join me later as I try to chiong my work, which is highly unlikely considering that Ive already succumbed to the temptation of blogging.

Cell yesteray was held after service, in RJC. It was cool, having worship and praying in the parade square for a revival in the school. We passed the flame to signify that we've caught the heartbeat of God for RJC & I guess David's right. We've gotta really step up in faith and fight for Him. We've gotta spread the burning passion and let this passion translate in to actions to serve God.

With that much said, Im actually also struggling within, asking myself really, how much am I willing to go out for God? How would I balance all my commitments, afraid of the tough journey ahead. Struggle struggle struggle.

Yesterday I learnt something from David when Suejen was complaining how she didnt want to study. David said "we study not for ourselves but for God, and when we study and work hard we give glory to God and become a living testimony for Him and His grace." Amen.

K so I will study!!!!!!

But before that more pics from seoul gar-den II. :) Enjoy!

Love ya!

2006-03-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

A recap on how I spent the hols so far.

Saturday was church. It was a good service, we invited Reverend Irvin Rutherford as a speaker and he challenged all of us to be forceful enough for God, to be passionate warriors for christ, to step up for missions and Save One More for Jesus. I guess the message was really relevant to me as I havent been forceful enough for God and I pray pray pray for that burning fire to keep my heart passionate for God.

When I heard him speak of the word of God, I tremble. In that service I was really really overwhelmed with the holy spirit and we worshipped, and worshipped, and worshipped, waaaaaay past the time we were sups to end (630) and finally ended at 915. Hahah, we missed the church bus but luckily Pastor Joyce was there to send some of us home :) PJ's like my neighbour la! She lives in the same estate as mine and we talk about the lousy standards of the coffeeshop downstairs hahah. Oh we were having our dinner at downtown east while waiting for PJ and then while we were only halfway through our meal PJ called to say she'd fetch us in 10 minutes time!! So both Nicol and I freaked, and the rest didnt provide much help either as they kept on chanting 'Nicol! 10 minutes!! Huiting!! Eat faster!!' Hahah. Buddies ah.

As for cell, how should I put it. When Nick (my cell leader, not my brother) asked us to share our problems in school, the difficulties faced trying to lead a spiritual life in the school environment, I hesistated.. and I didnt speak up eventually. I dont know, I guess I dont feel that close to my cell members yet especially the guys. I mean.. it's different I guess, confiding in a group of good girl friends and cell. But thank you Suejen, for everything, you know what I mean :)

Sunday & Monday were family days. Sis had Interact and RG guides camp, so the rest of us went to camp over at our other place at East Coast. It's gna be sold soon.. I guess thats a good thing since it's been quite a burden for my dad. But the bad news is, it's gna be sold too soon, if Im not wrong. I was planning to hold my birthday party there cos it's spacious and it has a roof terrace which is really ideal for like BBQ and it has a jacuzzi... then very romantic one can see airplanes take off from changi airport and count stars... :( Okay stop daydreaming.

Anyway, we didnt do much on Sunday but I guess the highlight of it was the International Buffet that we ate at Roxy Shopping Center (opposite Parkway Parade). I didnt eat much though, oh but we ate lots of rock oysters and sashimi (drools) hahaha. 20 bucks plus per person, not too bad a deal I guess! There were like sharks fin and free flow of hot chocolate!! make me happy only :D

And on Monday we went to East Coast Park. I was deciding whether to go for 3D's iceskating class outing (I got invited cos Im ultimate crasher! haha) or go east coast with the family, but I decided to go for the latter since my parents both took leave to spend time with us kids. :) So yeah basically it was just really nice and relaxing, cycling along the breeze. And dear Nick managed to learn cycling in 2 hours! So cute. It was a very nice, comfy, warm feeling that I had on these 2 days, spending time with my family.

Tuesday was girls night out! I blogged about that already! Basically Sherlyn Lois Janice and I (we're sec 2 classmates) continued on our Seoul Gar-den (inside joke) and went for Seoul Gar-den part 2 and caught up with one another's lives, laughing and having lotsa fun together, photowhoring and taking videos of our retarded moments. (there's more on Janice's cam)

Oh I also made a new layout for my blog and I absolutely love it! heehee.

Wednesday I made a new friend! His name is Cheemun from IB. Mulia, Cheemun and I went pooling at this place called conference centre?? or something! Next to Beauty World. Cheap cheap rates and lots of fun. Haha then mulia wanted to play basketball so we went to the court near his house and they played while I watched (cos I didnt want to get dirty) and then they got bored (or maybe they were afraid that Im getting bored) so we decided to come my place to play xbox and halo2 and cheemun can teach me dota! Haha but we went to Mulia's place first so he could change and we ended up spending our time playing the guitar, watching coolio basketball clips and decided it was too late to come my place.

Dad got really worried though cos I left my phone in my bag and when I checked it there were 8 missed calls from home =/ He really doesnt trust me enough :( and said I sldnt go pooling cos it's a sleazy place and I sld go to the library to read books with them. ...

Today is bright and sunny Thursday whereby the whole world will be going for Romp. But Im not. I guess I'll really draw the line at clubbing, for now at least. Not like my parents will allow or what and we talked about this in cell, must honour parents what right?? ;) Well it's Kenny's virgin party so I really hope everything turns out good and all of you have fun!

Later Cheemun and Mulia are coming over to.... play xbox! Haha I bet I'll beat them ;) (I beat a guy in winning eleven before!!) and then we'll go meet Mel to watch Date Movie.

So wordy this entry. Uploading pictures for the sake of it, and trying out picasa! (thanks gloria for the recommendation!)

So half the holidays are gone and so far it's all play playplayplayplayplay no wonder my parents have been nagging especially when my sis, on the other hand, is studystudystudystudy. I'll.... do my work on Friday since Ive got nothing on (well got 3g sentosa outing but...). Promise. And my ipod is going in and out of coma. It keeps hanging on me!! And then the light will stay there and I cant do anything about it and let the battery run, then I'll charge it full again but then after awhile it'll hang again! Idiot.

Oh and Id like to add on to my previous post about phase/forever friends, that this kind of thing is really both ways. If only one person makes the effort while the other keeps on taking only, it's straining the friendship.

Much love.

2006-03-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

GIRLS NIGHT OUT.

Introducing,

My lovettes. We pigged out at Seoul Garden again, love it. The food, the place, the COMPANY. It was great fun catching up with them, being retarded and just talking, laughing. I'll let the pics and videos do the talking alright?

theyre the same pics im just playing around for fun

sherlyn's golden egg!.. which I didnt dare eat.

BURP.

we're all full and happy :D

"your mother is so old. she knew burger king when he was a prince!"
"your mother is so stupid that she sits on the TV and watches the sofa!"

haha

we were trying to do the mutt cheer? the ra-ra-ra-raffles thing! I think we failed, but I found this clip amusing!

Phase friends, and forever friends. As cliched as it might sound, I guess it's gna be inevitable to lose many friends after JC. Friendships that were forged after 6 years in Raffles, will be pulled apart by a lack of space, or rather, greater distances. After JC, we'll all be on our own, treading different paths. Already Ive drifted away from some since JC started, since we've been separated my different classes. Not making enough effort to catch up and find out whats been going on in their lives. Thats regrettable.

Id like to believe that Ive made several 'forever friends' in the past years; friendships thats gna last and grow stronger even as the distance increases.

How many of them leave footsteps behind, how many fill your heart with emptiness. And how many stay.

Janice, Sherlyn, Lois,

♥

2006-03-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

Is there something wrong?

Anyway, public apologies to olives. I'll make it up to you, promise.

SATURDAY

2006-03-11T13:23:00.000+08:00

Seeing all the tags and concern, I feel so loved~~~ Haha I guess it really isnt worth it to be upset for so long. Anyhow, Im managing alot better now and good news, I got transferred to Tiantian's class! Very, very happy. And more good news! The holidays are here, at such a right time. I really need it to catch up on my work T_T

On Friday Candice Mel and I played a horrible prank on Olives. IM SORRY OLIVES!! Haha. Candice printed out a photo of Olives cutecute but screwed up face and her expression was really damn funny twas taken on the flight back from hongkong. She pasted it on one of the pillar of the canteen and we left it there hahahaha. (removed pic, sorry olives!!) It was pasted on the shower-some-love poster.

Ohya Liverpool got kicked out of Champs league. How now brown cow?

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!

Everybody go wish her. Now. Shes eighteen now. EIGHTEEN. Sounds really old, doesnt it? We were just talking about this issue with our parents yesterday after cutting cake, what it means to have ~~a kid~~ two daughters at the age of Eighteen. Where the balance lies, between freedom and independence. A time whereby, things are more in our own hands than in our parents', when we have to make more decisions on our own and to work for the things we want.

But for me, I dont think Im ready to be eighteen, or seventeen for that matter.

birthday girl wont you give me a smile?

nick is shy.

still shy but I love.

act cute. like Jenn.

my chubby boy. haha uploaded it for fun.

Act cool.

Dad and mum- tired after work!

Eighteen now, dearest. :)

Alright Im off to church now. Everybody enjoy your holidays :)

THURSDAY

2006-03-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

I shall stop being an emo kid.

Well we arent looking at the red dude there but instead, look at the fan and Jerik's head. Final Destination 3. Haha.

WEDNESDAY

2006-03-08T20:53:00.000+08:00

Hello. Im sorry I swore yesterday, I really burst-ed la. Ms Tan talked to me today and she was being really really nice about it, I felt alot better after that. The whole yesternight and today morning was just horrible Im sorry if I dao you or whatever yeah.

I think Im slowly becoming this problem kid?? Haha I dont know. Dont know anymore. :(

Happier times.

TUESDAY; HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIANTIAN

2006-03-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

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GIVE ME A BREAK.

SUNDAY

2006-03-05T12:56:00.000+08:00

How nice would it be if life's an easy balance, but it's not.

How nice if friends would stay forever, but they dont.

How wonderful if people love with all their heart, but seldom.

How perfect if things never fell apart, they do.

How great it is that God's with us, awesome.

How blessed we are to be in His presence, very.

How grateful that God's my shelter, my refuge and my bestfriend, eternally grateful am I.

-Nicol

Unsettled is this heart in disarray, clouded by emotions that weigh heavily upon this soul. They toss to the light beating of the waves; and somehow they dont stop coming. Yet, between spaces, I found myself immersed in thoughts, drifting into spaceless havens where serenity is found between my God and I. We are alone now and I lament my troubles and weariness to Him as we engaged in a heart-to-heart chat. He lavishes care, healing and tenderness upon my weary soul; lifting my spirit into new highs, but only temporary. For when it is time I'll be casted back into reality where I keep falling. Reality is tough, dreary, and lacking in warmth; it has no room for me. You are my escapade, and I dont want to leave- will You please keep me beneath your wings? These precious moments that I treasure so fondly, they smell of light lavender touched with sweet love. I locked them dear inside my heart, and buried the key deep within.

FRIDAY

2006-03-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

Breaking my heart, breaking my heart,

breaking my heart.. again.

THURSDAY

2006-03-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

hai. life sucks.

MONDAY

2006-02-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

Hihi very happy liverpool won but man u kicked wigans ass.. nvm. Going to play my first warcraft game I take orcs the enemy (1 on 1 game, I noob) take human and handicap 50% hehe wish me luck. I think Im a boy.

(40 minutes later)

SUNDAY

2006-02-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

I always knew I am a genius. Anyway heres the link http://intelligence-test.net/part1 have fun!

SUNDAY

2006-02-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

I stand here in this place,

see the glory of Your face

taken by the wonders of Your name.

Desperate for Your touch,

never needed it so much

& all I want is You

For the past weeks I found myself living a life without God in my heart, failing to turn to Him when things arent right, being too caught up with my own life and new friends, forgetting to seek Him when I was faced with the countless problems I had. At the end of the day, I was too tired to spend time with Him, forgetting that God should be my priority. I even found it a chore to do quiet time. Sorry God, please forgive me.

Lord Jesus today I commit myself to You, that I will live a life in awe of You, that in everything I do is done to glorify Your name. That God when I step out of the church or home, my actions and behaviour will be one of a christian who happens to be a student, and not the other way. That Lord I will honour Your name always and live by the word of God.

Please remember.

SATURDAY

2006-02-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

Hi friends Im incredibly tired got home real late after prayer meeting (church at pasir ris, I live at bukit batok). I dropped by zhehan's place (which is real near church) for awhile before going to church and omg zhemin so ~~kewtz~~ cute still haha shes superduper hyper. And before that something happened dont tell you heehee ♥_♥. And before that I crashed mel's and kenny's (class so3D) GP lesson with mr. ng choon ping! Hes damn cooleo (from talkcocksummit: when is the coolest time of the year to be born in! if you think its winter you are WRONG. it is from 24july to 23aug cos thats the time when leos are born so if you are born in that period then you are a cool leo! HAHA I found it extremely funny dont know about you)! Anw the 3D people were saying that he wont notice me cos he doesnt care but he did! And when he asked me I panicked so I said I just transferred to their class... (my wish) K and before that I went 3D for bio makeup lab lesson and it was. fun cos its in 3D but frustrating cos I cldnt focus my microscope properly la damn suck. And before that was just... lessons and before that was prayer meeting in the morning. If you dont already know I am blogging in anti-chronological order.

After GP lesson I had lunch with some of the 408 girls (mel olives tiantian vanessa xueting) and it really really really felt like rgs once more oh my. It was a damn nice feeling.. like just so comfortable like before when we just talk cock and laugh at each other. Kk Im real tired. Love you guys always.

MONDAY

2006-02-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

OHMYOHMY. I just caught the news which said that the contact lens solution which I happen to use B&L Renu cannot be used cos it triggers several effects including eye irritation, constant tearing and BLINDNESS!!!!!!!! Tian ah jiu jiu wo ba.

SUNDAY

2006-02-19T20:01:00.000+08:00

And I always wonder when the aliens from the universe would come

to take me away.

Okay listen up Ive got my whole entire life figured out Imma marry a capable enough, handsome husband and work as some anyhow anyhow worker until I earn enough money (& with my husband's financial support) to be an owner of a beach-side cafe selling food and drinks to hunks and chicks who walk in with their bikinis and boardshorts (as seen on OC) and everyday will be bright and sunny! How relax work will be la with no one to boss over me and Ill make sure I play shalalala songs and then Ill busy myself with designing advertisement and menu decor and accounting aiya easy peasy then my 2 kids (1 older brother and 1 younger sister) will do their homework at the cafe after school (cos they cant study at home, like me) then I can take care of them and kill 2 birds with a stone! (genius) Yes this is my life plan so I sldnt be too bothered about school work right now or how my freaking testimonial will look like cos next time Imma be my own BOSS!!! Life would be a fairytale.

......

Who are you trying to kid, huiting?

SATURDAY

2006-02-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hello! Im in an exceptionally good mood today because

1. I had a good rest!! woke up at 1plus. Just what I needed after an emotionally and physically exhausting week.
2. I had good food!! Was grandpa's birthday today (thats why I didnt go church) and I was full to the brim hehe. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHGONG! (not like you will ever ever read this) I was burphappyburp today. (I think I sound like a pig here but nvm)
3. Liverpool won Man U!!!!!!!!!!!!! Liverp♥♥l I love :D Gerrard looks exceptionally handsome today, so does Peter Crouch (goal scorer!!) even though he has a super huge orhbakkak on his head.

my favourite pic of the day. zhehan you sad anot?

This world is good today.

THURSDAY

2006-02-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

1 CORINTHIANS 13
Love is the Greatest

Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
Love will last forever.

2006-02-16T19:36:00.000+08:00

I think Ive to start re-evaluating myself before anything else. & Im sorry.

WEDNESDAY

2006-02-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! It was fun today seeing people giving flowers, chocolates, small notes and love was definitely in the air, in the form of heart-shaped balloons. Zay came to RJ with a huge bouquet of 120 roses for Yijing, mymy it was really sweet :) My hot date was Melissa Lim Pei Xuan <3

Anw, the class guys gave each of us a rose, and the girls made chocolate fondue for them! Quite interesting I wld say hahah. Oh ya, NEW LAYOUT! Haha it looks xangaish & I like it.

I was digging up pictures and I found this! It was taken during christmas at a family gathering. Haha EVERYONE, this is my pa and my ma!! For those who have not met my dad before, YES THIS IS HIM. My dad can really be damn retarded (and super frickin overprotective) sometimes, or get on my nerves ohsooften, but hes still my dad after all and I know he cares and I love him :) (AwwWw)

I DIGRESS! Actually I wanted to blog about this yesterday night at abt 12.40 and I was gna praise my dad and all but THEN he barged into the room and started shouting at me and (as usual, being his paranoid self) accused me of talking to my imaginary boyfriend and all that shit la so I very angry and I kidnapped his dearest warcraft CD!! Hehe.

OH GUESS WHAT, my dad just came in and did the same thing: "your future is very bleak you know!" (rolls eyes)

Oh and thats my chio mum. Like mother like daughter. HAHA. Okay goodnight!

SATURDAY

2006-02-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

Okay hi. So O level results are out today and yes we already know, our batch is stupider than the dragon babies. And yes my heart didnt break but Im still disappointed with my higher chinese results. Retake or not? My mummy not happy with me she says go coffeebean study also no use :( Hai. Sorry mum, sorry dad.

But anw, CONGRATS TO ARIANNE TAN! :) Told you your hard work would pay off. This girl ah, for the past few days shes just been going 'im so scaareeeeddd' the whole time la haha retard! And of course to all my other friends who did great :)

Well for me it felt really weird to be back in RGS again today. It was like... so familiar with this place, felt so belonged, but just weird. I felt old. Haha. They made us sing the school song again and it was super emo la!!!

Do you recognise this place? Far East chicken rice!! Haha. Gotcha\{mel} met up for lunch before getting back our results.

As if you dont already know them, me olives mel gina. In the hall we love so much.

Vania Olives Gina

Janjan.

Yupyup then we went to eat fried mars bars which takes up 25-30% of your daily fat intake, and this is without factoring in the scoop of icecream. HAHAH but I like. Went to watch Fun with Dick and Jane with candice olives harumi and wanling. It was quite funny I thought. And oh my. Please please please, PLEASE do not visit the third toilet cubicle at the 1st storey of the xu liu shan (the famous mango dessert shop) building. Oh my. Please. Let me show you why.

Enjoy your weekend.

THURSDAY

2006-02-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

OH MY OH MY. I am right. Liverpool freaking lost to Charlton 2-0 away. )%*$#)( Liverpool always like that one leh make my heart break you know :( Anw I think Im a genius I predicted correctly- that liverpool would lose. Which also means liverpool will FINALLY win man u on feb18 cos thats what I predicted too!!!! Heehee so excited :D
We're on our way!

WEDNESDAY

2006-02-08T19:40:00.001+08:00

happy birthday LOIS!!!!!
happy birthday VANIA!!!!!

FeAB babes i ♥

Heehee anw today I spent lots of time with tiantian I also ♥ :) :) We took many strolls around the school campus so romantic! I really miss her lots, together with the rest of gotcha man..

Even though you see her she can be dao like hell..

Always looking like she wants to kill you..

shes actually really really cute and chirpy (and bullyable) like before when she was still a small little p2. :D Everybody if you see her on the streets must say hi to my good friend tiantian okay. And if you are looking to freeload food sit next to her cos tiantian eats --- this much.

Hi guys, how are you all? Dont we all look so happy in that pic, just so comfortable with each other? We almost look like family. Those were the days when we had sososo much fun laughing with each other AND at one another for all the retarded things we do, getting high on singing, bridging, all the recesses we had together. How we stuck through tougher times, staying up and encouraging one another to complete their performance task that was due the next day. Ponning school together!!! :) With you guys I always felt this warm sense of belonging, something I miss so much now.

Olives, Mel, Gina, Candice, Tiantian:

love love full of love.

SUNDAY

2006-02-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's service was vavavoom man! I felt God's presence so strongly and it feels really good :) Ive been feeling rather spiritually dry for the past week, I hope it gets better soon. I just wish I could be more passionate about God, that there's just such a strong desire in me to want to know who my God really is.

I woke up super early today to travel all the way to expo for service at cityharvest, cos Delirious was there!! Man it was real cool :) Oh and today I brought my camera out!!! (see Im learning)

Thanks mel for bringing us there!

Haha my mum is PMSing really bad now, okay digressor. Anyway, normal stuff after that, Joanne Alvin Barney and I had lunch at cartel, then we went to Swensons for earthquake!!

Barney and Alvin

Joanne and I

And it's Joanne's and Jerome's birthday tmr, and to the many other Feb babies, Happy birthday little boys and girls! (:

And O level results are out soon!!! Really, good luck to everyone man. Im hoping to get at least a B for chinese la otherwise my heart will break like *piang*. Remember all the slogging at coffeebean!?! Yup best of luck to my dearest Arianne, Xuanyi, Hobs!

Here's a picture of a cute boy for you.

You see that?! You see that!? Liverpool will win tonight and overtake Man U :D

THURSDAY

2006-02-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

I am blogging for the sake of blogging.

I was on the bus home with tiantian that day and there was a pair of girls our age standing just in front of us and this was their conversation.

A: Do you want your husband to die before or after you?
B: ... (mumbles some stuff awkwardly)
A: What do you think is the best way to die?
B: ...
A: Who would you think of just before you die?
A: Do you live to die?
A: What would you want to do the most just before you die?

omg, it was SO weird! and me and tiantian were like.. trying to contain our laughter la.

Delirious going cityharvest this weekend!!

MONDAY

2006-01-31T12:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everybody!

Happy CNY!

This CNY has been kind to me, good food, good angbao, good clothes even (though I bought it super super last minute!! like on friday!) Heheh. The only bad part must be the LACK OF COUSINS laaaa so many of them in Australia. Siann. But it was good fun la.

Anyway, travelled all the way to Pasir Ris yesterday for Zhehan's party! I lovelovelove his house it's super nice it has a super huge trampoline, a damn nice swing, a netball hoop, a kickass treehouse AND another vacant house just opposite!? Super cool please. It's like the ruggers' chalet or something. Karwei and Tianmun tried to spook us (josephine, tamara, maryanne and me) when they toured us around the other house. Alot of crap la, they were talking about the how there was a pair of twins that stayed in a particular room, rubbish la haha but it was quite funny. And there was this portrait of a young boy and a naked woman, and they said the young boy was zhehan and the naked woman was his grandaunt AHahAHah!! Okay I must start learning to bring my cam around then next time can show you all what I saw.

Then people started streaming in and we just sat around the backyard. There were people talking, eating.. and of course kennybear jumping on the trampoline ahah--> that spells DANGER la seriously haha once he got on the trampoline ah.. sien and josephin who were already on it couldnt stand anymore once he started jumping la and they were just bouncing haha damn funny.

ZHEMIN!!! She's like the cutest thing pleaseee :) She cant remember my name so she calls me goldfish!? And me, zheru and zhemin (zhehan has 3 sisters) were on the treehouse and zhemin was like 'come!! I have something to show you!' and she brought me to the living room where there was this plant with angbao decors and she shouted 'HAPPY NEW YEAR!!' omgoshh so kEwTzZzz!! Lol.

I played winning eleven (football) with zhaoying (spelling?) and i actually won laa ahahaah!! Zhaoying took Italy (super pro defence) and I took Argentina and we were tied 1-1 at first then we went into extra time and I tyco tyco scored a header so I won! AHAh! Joke man. Not bad right who wants to challenge me??? ;) Zhaoying wanted revenge so we played a second game and I was leading 1-0 again, when we had to cut cake!

From left: Karwei, Tianmun, Zhehan.

Aiyah sorry the pics all suck. This is the best I could manage with my lousy 6220 phone.

Zhehan: you are a damn good friend la but must keep secret OKAY!!!!!!!! VIP treatment, haha I had great fun but too bad I had to leave so soon ):

Okay I'll post more pics when i get them :) (whoever has them, karwei or who??, send me!)

Lovelove!

THURSDAY

2006-01-27T20:13:00.000+08:00

mEs! 9759 ; says:
i miss you man
mEs! 9759 ; says:
lol random rite
mEs! 9759 ; says:
but the more time you spend wif someone
mEs! 9759 ; says:
den when you are apart you miss the person more
mEs! 9759 ; says:
usually its the case
mEs! 9759 ; says:
we always hang out
mEs! 9759 ; says:
shopping, hk, study, sch wth
mEs! 9759 ; says:
lol

That made my day, mel :)

2006-01-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

Hello some things really get on my nerves sdfkljsdfslkd anw Im troubled over the CCA thing ahh just wish to get settled down in school asap.

I have a secret... :) :)

SATURDAY

2006-01-22T11:16:00.000+08:00

I dont know what to say first.

♥

THANK YOU JESUS

For always being there and Lord, I just want to trust in You and Your ways. I WILL NOT WORRY, because worry is a magnet that attracts negativity!! I trust that as long as I seek You, all these hurt and troubles would disappear because I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! yeah baby. For all these troubles and hurt, Lord I trust that Youd heal them all and lead me out of this darkness. (:

♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL,

Im sorry I couldnt spend your birthday with you but you must know you are always important to me, dearest. The girl that puts a smile on my face always, you have been extraordinary and I know I can tell you any anything. I can no longer imagine what life is like without you (: I pray you would have a blessed year ahead and that You'd rely on the Lord's strength through tougher times always. And I'll still be here for you (:

♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLORIA,

Thanks so much for everything gonggong, thanks for inviting me to your party I had fun! Gloria gloria, gloria always tickles me with her retardedness seriously who would write 'edison chen invented the lightbulb' on her GP essay? or laughing by herself because she doesnt know what she is laughing about?? Thats gloria for you. Super Gloria, so all-rounded and talented. Dont let small things get you down easily, okay? Be strong, lovelove (:

(gloria I koped this pic from your blog)

bottom row from left: zhaoyu, toonhwee second row: xueling!!, wene, GLORIASMUCKS!!, loisy, terese top: liling (?), chuwen, me

Had church yesterday and crap I was so distracted during service. Ahhh okay anw, rushed down all the way from pasir ris to clementi then to gloria's house for her birthday party! Played card games, talked, made a few friends. I have nothing else to say.

I wish, I wish, I wish. I wish I would be numb to all these. Stupid fool. Let Go, Let God.

Im sorry for the times when you felt cold.

WEDNESDAY

2006-01-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

Im upset.

"Slowly, the slight drizzle turns to a downpour. The rain seems unending, seemingly as if the burden has been carried for years. The rain falls, and I cry. Tears or rain, rain or tears, I do not know which carries more burden. But the cocktail of rain and tears washes away my sorrows, and I am whole once again."

-a good friend

2006-01-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Things have generally been fine but I feel like lsakjdflsj now because of too many reasons and it just weighs me down, it's been a trying time and Im just learning how to rely on God's strength. Its not easy.

A few days ago Gloria commented that both she and shaf thinks Ive changed, Ive become more unfriendly and dao and all that shit and I really hate that, it affects me alot when people, especially good friends, comment stuff like this about me I mean how Ive 'changed' I hate changes I told you all before and lskdfjlskdjfsl I really dont mean to be dao and all that shit la actually I dont feel that Ive changed but perhaps I have, subconsciously. I HATE CHANGES.

And then I just read Marcus' blog about how people enter and leave our lives so easily, 'The act of people walk in and out of your life is indeed a normality to everyone. But how many of them leave footsteps behind, how many fill your heart with emptiness. And how many stay.' and it just SUCKS that I am not one of those who stayed. Theres nothing much to talk about this whats done is done and theres no turning back we've both moved on and theres only memories and regrets left. I dont even know why Im mentioning all these here it's so private and this is like a bare-it-all entry and i think, the password prompt will be up soon again if I continue being this emo kid.

And crap todays just crap okay I mean the last part of the day was just so upsetting la. netball tryouts, which i chickened out. LSKDJFSDLFJSLFJS simply cos of the daunting 4.7km thing, i know i probably cant make it to the team anw, and yeahh it all sucks okay. seeing them play today was so heartbreaking, it was just aching. How i miss the ball, the courts, the pri school competition days, the 408 netball times. How Im regretting, not joining netball in sec1 and it just seems that its become a case of it's too late. REGRETS, REGRETS, DISAPPOINTMENTS, APPREHENSION. I really love netball la so I hope the recre netball thing works out fine.

And I also realised that Ive not mentioned much about my class. I am in 07S03G. The first few days sucked okay I was like lonely for most of the times cos there are only abt 5/6 other girls in class and I didnt know all of them but thank God momo has transferred to my class. It was definitely alot better today. I wish I was in 3d though hai nvm, shall be contented.

CHOPPED UP THOUGHTS. They reflect the state Im in.

MONDAY

2006-01-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hi today something really interesting happen I must blog about it. MELISSA LIM is a joke please. As we all know crumplers, especially black crumplers are like super iNzzZ now and melmel together with many many others have black crumpler! So, during recess today melmel mistook another person's black crumpler for hers and decided to keep her wallet (which contains so much money la) and phone in that fateful crumpler but she later realised that that crumpler wasnt hers and she went to fetch her own, at the same time forgetting that she left her valuables in someone else's crumpler. genius indeed la, mel. And bell rang lecture time and all then she finally realised that that crumpler was gone, together with her valuables and SO, me gina mel charlene started on a TREASURE HUNT!! seriously, we were like some police you know touching every black crumpler walking down the aisles of the canteen searching for the treasure.

And like, it was super funny laa there was this J1 guy who has the same crumpler as her and gina was calling mel's phone using her own phone and mel went to touch (she tried to do it discreetly, which looks so wrong) the guys bag while he was happily talking to his own friends, as if she was trying to molest him or something!!! Yah so in the end we were asking all those who owned black, small crumpler bags to check but to no avail..

so we went to general office where we reported loss, and under 'what's lost?' then mel wrote

"..black crumpler

(not mine)"

which we all thought it looked damn hilarious- 'i lost a black crumpler which wasnt mine'!! Hahah so then no time already and we had to go for chem lecture and all these while we were still on the lookout for the damn stuff okay damn paiseh and xing ku you know. We were calling and calling, msging and msging, but the person didnt pick up!! We thought 1:STOLEN, 2:PERSON DIDNT REALISE. And we tried hard to look on the bright side.

Anw.. after such a longlonglonglong time and being kept in so much suspense, mel finally found the stuff in this guy's bag and the guy didnt even realise la!! He even apologised hahah, poor dude must have been traumatised. Shihui was like saying 'the guy ah must be feeling eh why today my butt so itchy!!' cos there were FORTY-FOUR MISSED CALLS, and INBOX FULL HAHAH so that means the phone must have vibrated like mad but wah the guy really didnt realise la.

GOOD DUDE, MEL. YOU WIN.

SUNDAY

2006-01-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

(I spent a million hours trying to figure out how to upload audio onto a particular post but to no avail. this clip, there is none like You, will be put up for awhile as it is meant for this particular post.)

I copy Janice (:

This flash simply moves me to tears (http://donghaeng.net) & it speaks so much of the love our God has for us. Dear God, thank You so so much for your greatest, unconditional love.

I feel Ive grown so much spiritually over the past month, it really wows me. Lord I just want to trust in You and rely on your strength, Lord grant me vision & discipline. Thank You God.

There is none like You.

SUNDAY

2006-01-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

Oh my sleeping child, the world's so wild

but you build your own paradise &

that's one reason why I cover you, sleeping child (:

Hello! Xuanyi's over now & Lois has left even before I woke up. Last night has been pretty eventful, church, cell dinner, went to corduroy & finch (damn cool the place and they have drinks called screwdriver?? which is, according to vincent, vodka with orange juice oohla) with xuanyi and met up her judo friends Joan & Vincent. This girl ah, Ive been seeing her for the past 3 days la!! I bet thats why I got my rash. Hahahh, no la I bluff you actually I think it's the wargames la, the Isabel game (it is a game at the field which the OGLs purposely added water into the mud) and that day reached home how late, thats why got freaking rashes la.

Okay anw, then after that Xuanyi crashed my place cos my family's not home tonight, & we pranked Lois at 1am laa! Hahah, anw in the end lois was tricked to come over, and she got locked out of her house eventually cos when she went back at like 3am plu her dad was already asleep. haha, sorry lois!!!!

What a sianboringsian entry. Let's talk about orientation. It was alright all in all, but I wished my OG was more fun. I knew I kind of isolated myself cos sometimes I felt real sian and I mostly talked to olives and cheryl neoh only, but when the OGLs were around, things were better la cos theyre like hyper people. I thought the programmes planned out were pretty interesting and i had some fun playing the games and all that. On the last night, there was o-nite and honestly i thought it was a failure. We ran off schedule and so many items were cancelled, which is plain wrong. all the z'kings and z'queens' effort like.. i dont know, was discredited for. & sheralyn's and yijing's OG didnt get the chance to perform their item also la, that means more effort wasted. Hadley-Hullet's skit got disqualified cos it was full of MEAN stereotypes but in the first place, why were they allowed to perform???? Yup thats about o-nite, but I really enjoyed the play put up by the OGLs la, the one with big bird and all. That was really quite funny (: I liked the burning of the z'kardia thing

and the last song the OGLs sang, even though it was abit messy but I was quite touched actually... ♥♥

All in all, z'kardia has been memorable. The OGLs have been great fun and led well, and though I didnt enjoy myself as much as others did, this piece of Rafflesian spirit will be found in me forever (:

Lovelove.

TUESDAY

2006-01-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

kennethh says:
im brushing my teeth now
huiting says:
huhhhh HAHAHA
kennethh says:
haha today my grp ppl damn high and on so it ended on a high note
huiting says:
as you are typing this?
kennethh says:
ya my tooth brush in my mouth as i type
huiting says:
HAHAHA i am so going to blog about this

Hi. Im having orientation now. It is not bad, but I wished my OG were more fun but nvm, can do. OGLs Yacong & Eric are fun and nice people I like and thankfully Ive my dearest Olives in my OG too! Played station games & they keep trying to pair girls and guys. nvm. Oh I think the Bayley guys are abit ki siao hahah. Okay very tired now byebye.

SUNDAY

2006-01-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hello & welcome to year 2006 (:

I really enjoyed myself on the last day of 2005, did you? This time round, there was a special meaning as I ushered in the new year together with my church friends because I know that there is God in my heart, and Im thankful for that. No words can describe how lucky I feel to be in His arms. We went to East Coast beach for countdown & we reached the jetty just in time to view the fireworks, which were really spectacular and pretty. I dont know why but I felt numb at that time, as though I wished time would not pass me by, that it would stop. All in all, I had alot of fun with jan, dew, xuanyi, drea, aly (: and BELLA!!! (shaun's dog that dew and I thought was really ugly hahah)

That aside, I guess there were more ups than downs in year 2005. I think I was generally a happy girl throughout the past year, maybe except for July.
I had wanted to give my best shot for my studies and Im glad to say, I really did give it all. The times slogging at beans.. Hahah but I had fun too, even when we were studying & trying to memorise chinese/bio, getting frustrated at math/chem/phys, being chased out by @$#(* tushin the super annoying manager there.
Receiving Christ, amen! I look back and think how much Ive grown spiritually and Im in awe. Must really thank andrea for this, right lublub? hahahaha.
For friends, for GinaOlivesTiantianCandiceMel, arianne, gloria, drea, xuanyi, vania, bobo & marcus. Catching up with lois & janjan. I love you all <3
For family, Ive learnt to appreciate them more than ever. & Im learning how to grow up so that my parents can trust in me. Also Im really thankful that theyre so open & accepting towards me being a Christian (my dad bought me a christian dvd yesterday! haha). I want to treat them better.

I think year 2005 was A YEAR WELL SPENT. Ive learnt & grown so much in the past year. Learnt how to appreciate things even more, learnt so much about friendship, grown to be more matured (I hope) and learnt how to protect & guard my heart. Hopefully I can look back at 2006 and say the same things, or better, even more. I hope I wont change for the worse, though. But Im excited at what the coming year holds!

WELL FOLKS, see you guys in RJ! (:

FRIDAY

2005-12-30T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hi. I think Im a Yao Guai. (demon, in chinese) Today I went to Jurong Point with my mama to make contacts, but turns out that I cant use disposable ones, because MY EYEBALLS ARE TOO FLAT?!?!? wth......

actually it is quite flat la. hai.

& that reminded me of when I was putting on my braces, I had to extract two teeth on each side, and the dentist had so much difficulty pulling out the right one (owww!!!bluff you la i felt numb, no feeling not pain), and when he finally did he found that MY TOOTH HAD THREE ROOTS!?! Tian ah.

And also, I can bend my fingers in a disgusting fashion.

Bet you cant do it.

I told you so, Im a yao guai lo...

THURSDAY; SHOUTOUTS

2005-12-29T16:22:00.000+08:00

candice & olives: PLEASE upload hongkong pics soon, thanks.
bobo: romantic hand chicken sounds better, I think.
gloria: trust in the Lord & take lots of care, please. <3
arianne: go see a doctor hahah.
xuanyi: you ah update your blog yourself!
drea: keep on soaring high, see you this saturday! (:
vania: nvm take things one step at a time, talk soon okay?
mel: better tag soon or youre dead.
God: Thank You.

TUESDAY

2005-12-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

Yoyo! (does it the Mel way) Today was funnn! (: Went to Dew's house and played around! Thats all & lots of loveeeee <3 Enjoy yourself while you still can!! School is freaking starting in a weeks time ): Im not really looking forward to it cos I heard OGs are according to houses... & (sorry, but) I dont really like mine much. Nvm happy thoughts AYYY you all savour the last few days & make sure you lick it clean! :D Much rubbish.

SATURDAY

2005-12-24T12:28:00.000+08:00

Im reflective :)

I was on my way back from westmall after buying some giftwraps when I passed this Dad who was rollerblading & teaching his little son & daughter blading.. so cute and heartwarming. I smiled at that scene and the dad smiled back heehee.

I think to me, one of the most touching things are a father's tears for his child. When I say this, scenes of daughters marrying off/child goes up on stage and is awarded with prestige etc come to mind. The stoic impression he's been trying to keep, broken so easily by mere love for his child. Simply moving.

& just another thought that arose when I was on the bus- gaining strength from small joys to sustain oneself through times of difficulty. (disclaimer: Im merely expressing my thoughts, I dont intend to impose them on you) I think that sentence pretty sums up what Ive been trying to say all these while, the little things in life that give us so much happiness, yet we take for granted, is sufficient. Family, stable lifestyle (school food handphone you get what I mean), even things like beautiful scenery (this I think only applies to me), chocolates (!!!), greetings, alone time, so many of these we've been treating with sheer indifference, yet we're so blessed & lucky just to have them. It's a life that many of us lead, but it all boils down to how we want to use all thats been given to us. For myself, I keep a constant reminder everytime I feel down & upset (although I admit sometimes it doesnt help), that Im blessed because of these small joys. I am, I really am. (like I said this is only what I feel, you dont necessarily have to agree with it) I think it's important to be happy when you can, and when you have no reasons to be upset, you ought to be happy! I dont think that I can only be happy when something extraordinary happens, like upon receiving flowers, or when Im pleasantly surprised.

Right now, the house is busy and filled with lively chatter. My dad's side external family are all over cos my aunt&uncle invited them for a christmas lunch. The women in the kitchen, Nick, Uncle Jed, and Dad wrestling on the bed, & I just finished wrapping gifts. I think I should appreciate this moment now too, a time of family bonding.. a time of lively peace. Theres champagne, roasted lamb, roasted chicken, beef, mussels... (the list goes on) woaarghhh!!! what a feast la! Going to church later and it's a pity I cant go for the JC party thing afterwards cos it's Janna's (my mum's side cousin) one-year-old birthday bash! What an eventful christmas eve ^^.

Oh yes, picture time. I baked brownies last night for my girls!

I aspire to be a baker. (kidding)

hahahahaha the mix! like shit hor?

into the oven!

Can you smell the lovely choco scent??? :D:D -excited!

(I decided not to show you the end product because I forgot to take a pic before I pinched some hehehe)

Wrapped prettily.

Pretty aye? :D

Alright yall, have a blessed & MERRY CHRISTMAS!

FRIDAY

2005-12-23T10:59:00.000+08:00

Heyhey, Im incredibly tired, it's the first time in the hols Ive slept so little!! I went to bed at 3plus and woke up to the sound of my aunt's and uncle's chatters at all-behold-930am. ): very tired now. I successfully managed to scare Xuanyi last night/morning when I reminded her it was 3am (for those who watched Emily Rose, you know what I mean hawhaw). Im heading out soon, watching kingkong with my aunt & uncle (who're back from their Nepal trip but leaving on christmas back to america), nick and my grandma. Hahah so cute right my grandma. Hope she doesnt get too excited during the movie! Oh ya because of that.. Ive to pangseh tiantian who pangsehed me yesterday ahahaha sorry dude. Will date you again :D OKay off now!

THURSDAY

2005-12-22T22:35:00.000+08:00

# the day has just started to warm up and already the coffeeshop is filled with lovely chatter- of children to parents, & parents to coffeeaunties. weekend breakfasts in the neighbourhood coffeeshop never fails to brighten my day. all around me i see chinese eating roti prata, indians and malays playing chinese chess, & of course a time of splendid bonding with the family. the coffeeshop: a place that holds the very essence of singapore, a singaporean life. small joy. ♥

# i was on the bus home today & there was this indian-eurasian boy who hugged his mum and said 'mami i love you'. it filled me with a sense of warmth, i wished i had the courage to say that humbled three words to my parents too. mummy, daddy, i love you.♥

# often, i am contented easily. buy me chocolates & icecream and it'll make my day, tell me you care and i'll carry a smile, tag me and i know ive been in your thoughts. i hope you understand my message when i wrote body&soul (dated december01). i dont need bouquets of flowers or carefully planned surprises to sustain me, all i need are little greetings to know that im cared for. you know, i am a very lucky girl and i am contented. ♥
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today was shopping day! went to queensway shopping centre & then to orchard with chloe (who bought sosososo much) last minute christmas shopping! hehehe tired now!! i am happy with my buys :D

& i love you all please take lots of care.♥♥♥

2005-12-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY

2005-12-21T02:01:00.000+08:00

SINFUL JOY, MY LULLABY GUILT TRIP.

Yesterday was day out with Mel my favourite asshole and we were at fareast so I definitely couldnt miss..
FRIED MARS BARS !!!
So I was a happy girl for the rest of the day.